December 17, 2006
Randomly...
Bblics' theme seems to be 'distance'. I told her it's 'escaping' over sms. But I think distance is a more objective term. She's always running away, or having some kind of distance from 'him'.
Distance. How far is far? So near yet so far.
My theme seems to be 'desire, unattained'. I always want something and I so clearly know what I wanted. But, even in the end, I never got what I wanted. It just ended quite cruelly.
Desire. All that I deny that I want in reality claw out for my attention from sandman's bag.
I'm talking about dreams. What her dreams and my dreams seem to revolve around.
xxx
This is a soft rock weekend. The very best during which to spend the whole day on the bed, sipping tea and reading. The best.
xxx
The first last day in 2007 is January 31. I have to stay till then because my bank just got credited with my pro-rated bonus a couple days ago. Then, I begin, again, at a new workplace.
MOE was the last decision we made together. The afternoon I submitted my application online at her house, from her notebook, was a very sunny one. I remember I didn't even hit the 'submit' button. She did it for me.
And, my decision now is to terminate that decision. Aiyah, I'm just thinking too much. But, you know what, I do feel a little, a slight sadness. Even if I know, at this given point in time, it's the right decision.
xxx
Somehow, next week is going to be packed as well. Strange. 'Cos I didn't think I would have so much things to do, so many people to catch up with after I returned from HK. But, this week's been pretty busy. I wish I have more time in the afternoons.
Next week, I'm having a break from tuition. So, at least, I can go work on my plan on getting bit more tanned in the morning. I'm already one shade more tanned (according to Kenneth, whom I met 2 days ago). =)
xxx
What does 'friday or something' mean?
Let's go get some afternoon tea, talk a little, and watch the world go by... Just like we used to. We used to.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:40